Reflections of Jordan Age 4

I can not get over the Jordan is 4.  He was still in diapers when I got him, barely off of a bottle could barely speak and just all out still a baby...my baby!  This year I have learned a different kind of patience with Jordan...the patience of letting Jordan talk......and talk and talk and TALK! He talks...ALL THE TIME! We are frequent user of the 1.2.3 quiet game at home and in the car!

This year Jordan moved from the nursery at church to a Sunbeam.  His hardest struggle (and still is) is that he just wants to play at church, not sit and listen.  So, well, that is still a work in progress.  But he loves to come home and sing...and he also loves to brag that he is the first one to get a sucker from the Bishop after church.  He knows his entire alphabet (which I think is cool because we were still working on David's alphabet in kindergarten) so makes me know he is a smarty pants!

He has to do everything on his own...going potty, brushing his teeth, getting dressed, etc.  And this morning while we were getting ready for the day as a family he informed me that he is 4 years old (held up four fingers on his hand) and said "mommy I am this many now so you don't have to take care of me anymore!" :-(

So this year he gets to start pre-school as well.  And he is SUPER excited.  He is always jealous that brother is doing homework and reading (might as well hype that up while I can before I start to argue with him about doing his homework). 

So here's to his 4th year and getting ready for age 5 and the big word...wait for it...KINDERGARTEN! I don't think there is enough meds in America for when my last kid starts kindergarten.  Oh yeah and I feel bad for his future teacher as well.  He sure does keep his Sunbeam teachers on their toes...and you think I am kidding? Trust me...my kid I am sure is the kid they hope doesn't show up...lol!

So Happy Birthday BUGS! We love your little fiesty heart!

Reflections of David Age 7

I am a day late...but here is my year in review with David for his birthday.  First off, he said he doesn't want to turn 8 and he doesn't want to get baptized.  I think he is scared because his dad has joked with him about keeping him under the water when he gets baptized...Jordan is scared too...good one honey. :-) But we assured him that is not how it works and Shon will practice here and there with him in the next year so he has a better idea of how it really is. 

Anyways, this year was almost tougher than last year with David.  I thought it would get better and instead it got worse.  We had David in counseling and I really did not like how that was going (blaming the counselor more) with David.  So I pulled him and things seemed to be fine, but in the last 4 month it has taken a drastic turn.  I found myself more and more angry with him.  I was losing a lot of patience with him and found I was walking away from him way more than I should as a mom because I was going to freak out on him.  David was more sad, more angry and acting out more than he ever has.

Recently, thanks very much to a very very dear friend of mine whom really came to my rescue.  I was literally in tears with David. I felt like a failure, I had no idea what to do next.  The help I knew we needed to get him was WAY out of price range for us.  I was praying harder than I think I ever had for me AND for David. I was asking my husband for priesthood blessings.  I knew that this was beyond my power and strength as a mother.  I needed something more. 

My friend introduced us to something call color therapy.  He works out his "story" and emotions with colors and makes a book of his story or what he wants to talk about that day.  Her mother is going through school at the moment and needs some clients as she is going through.  I have met her mother and I felt very comfortable with her processing David.  Sessions can cost 35-200+.  Since her mom is still working on her license, she agreed to do some sessions for free! And to boot she knows someone who is working on getting us some discounted sessions. 

David has so far gone to one session of color therapy and we already noticed a difference. IN ONE DAY! And we weren't the only ones.  I didn't even go to therapy with him and I realized I was having more patience with him, I was apologizing more to him when I was losing my patience with him and I was making sure I was telling David I love him more...I do several times a day (well in the morning and night) but I was making sure he aknowledged that I said to him that I love him.  I won't go in to detail on what came out during his color therapy session, but it was deep and it was heart breaking.  It was all about his past and how he felt today about his past.  I said my prayers that night and my heart broke for my precious child. The things he really does remember and the things that affect how he feels today about his family.

I know my family is blessed with the great friends we have, and David in particular to this true blessing of a friend that introduced us to this type of therapy.  We can hopefully now resolve most (I say most because I don't think he will ever be able to forget his past) of what has happened in the past.  I pray my child can look to the future and know that we love him with out a doubt in our minds, biological parents or not and that he will always be apart of our family no matter the good or the bad that comes from him.

David,  I love you with all of my heart and I will make it my goal as a mother to you to make sure you know what that love feels like and means.  I would never change anything about how you came to us.  You are a special part of this family and we all love you so very much.  I love you son and happy 7th birthday!

Deep Breath...

We have been pretty busy, not that anything else is new right? On the 25th Shon, myself, David and Jordan were all sealed together in the Mount Timpanogos Temple.  It was such a sweet spirit that was there.  We had so many friends that showed up, it was amazing! Even the friends that couldn't make it were so kind to text that morning or email.  We truly have great friends!

I started my new job at Intermountain Healthcare.  I have been there for...well about a month I think...
I LOVE it there.  Everyone is awesome.  They are work hard and play hard which is totally what I love! Everyone is so willing to help...management too! It's a nice fresh breath of air. 

Afterwards we ate at Chuck-a-rama. It was pretty low key.  That is really the only place most people like in the family, so we went with it (even with rude comments from others).  But it was our day and we tried to make it comfortable for most people. 

I know my blog is getting less and less updated.  I am working full time as does Shon and even though others may not agree with that, it is our decision and our kids will learn the true meaning of work. 

I love my job as does Shon so why change something you like? So in my free time, I am writing less on my blog and spending it with my children.  That is how Shon and I were raised and I think we turned out just fine.  We may not own our own home or have money come out of our ears but we can provide for our children and give them what they need with no hesitation.  We have learned our lesson of making rational decisions and we have worked for the things we have in our home now that we own as well as two vehicles that run great! Who could ask for more? :-)

Anyways, with that said I am working on Christmas gifts! Yup that's right! I know exactly what I want to make my nieces and nephew so I am working on it now! They will all take some time to do, so I have to get started now or they wont be Christmas gifts...well they will be Christmas gifts in like 3 years...hahaha.

In other news it's March, which means David and Jordan have birthdays this month!!!  I have no idea what we are doing yet, but it will be fun!

Will keep ya posted!

Love,

Time away...

I just can't ever seem to get some time to sit on here and make a post! Things are still crazy as ever! I love the weekends where I have NOTHING to do and NOWHERE to go! Sadly, those are few and far between. 

I boringly dont have much to annouce besides THIS!

Yes, we know...it has taken us a VERY long time to get here.  You never think how many things come up and excuses you make when it comes to the temple.  So we are OUT of excuses are super excited to have our two precious boys sealed to us!

Oh, I guess I do have MORE news.  I have accepted a position with Intermountain Healthcare.  I start on Monday! And Shon is quitting his second job for another job with slightly less hours.  In other words, I have him home on the weekends again! Cleaning here we come...oh I mean, quality time with my husband (wink).

I am still not quite sure how I schedules are going to pan out but we have faith this is what we are suppose to be doing and this is the direction we should be going at this time.  So here's to some movie/family nights!